Friday, October 1, 2010

I've been thinking lately....

About the past, and I've been thinking a lot. Mainly about the failed suicide attempts. Yes attempts as in plural, more then one. I look at the vertical scars on my wrists daily. (Well I can't help but look at them since they will always be there) But I look back and wonder, what the hell was I thinking at the time....I know I was beyond depressed, but was it worth trying to take my own life? Was it really worth the pain I put my friends and family through to see me like I was?

You know I'm glad my attempts failed. It gave me a second chance to actually fix my head. And the 10 years since, I think I'm doing pretty well.

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  1. awww, hang in there, maybe keep track of the beautiful things you see day-to-day, then you can look back at them when you get down to remind you of the good in the world

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  2. Damn, glad to hear you're okay now.

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  3. Man, i'm really glad you got over it!

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  4. You would be surprised at what music and meditation can do for you....

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  5. I was the same way. I've made a few attempts to(tried to swallow different things, but I ended up throwing them up), but I got out of that phase. Really the world is depressing for me too, but the anticipation of new video games that I have yet to play, and movies I have yet to see keep me going. I'm glad you've decided against it.

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  6. Hey just followed and read your post happy you got through it

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  7. Wow, i haven't listened to buckethead since like guitar hero 2. haha, Thanks for the nostalgia. :D

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  8. That's heavy shit man. Hope you're through that now, that's no way to live a life, wishing you weren't living...

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  9. That's deep man. It's great that you're doing better now.

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  10. I'm happy you're doing better now man, cheers! You should check out my Endvra post it'll cheer you up!

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  11. Life is goooood dude.Go smoke some weed man!

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