About the past, and I've been thinking a lot. Mainly about the failed suicide attempts. Yes attempts as in plural, more then one. I look at the vertical scars on my wrists daily. (Well I can't help but look at them since they will always be there) But I look back and wonder, what the hell was I thinking at the time....I know I was beyond depressed, but was it worth trying to take my own life? Was it really worth the pain I put my friends and family through to see me like I was?
You know I'm glad my attempts failed. It gave me a second chance to actually fix my head. And the 10 years since, I think I'm doing pretty well.
awww, hang in there, maybe keep track of the beautiful things you see day-to-day, then you can look back at them when you get down to remind you of the good in the world
ReplyDeleteDamn, glad to hear you're okay now.
ReplyDeleteMan, i'm really glad you got over it!
ReplyDeleteYou would be surprised at what music and meditation can do for you....
ReplyDeleteI was the same way. I've made a few attempts to(tried to swallow different things, but I ended up throwing them up), but I got out of that phase. Really the world is depressing for me too, but the anticipation of new video games that I have yet to play, and movies I have yet to see keep me going. I'm glad you've decided against it.
ReplyDeleteHey just followed and read your post happy you got through it
ReplyDeleteWow, i haven't listened to buckethead since like guitar hero 2. haha, Thanks for the nostalgia. :D
ReplyDeleteThat's heavy shit man. Hope you're through that now, that's no way to live a life, wishing you weren't living...
ReplyDeleteThat's deep man. It's great that you're doing better now.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy you're doing better now man, cheers! You should check out my Endvra post it'll cheer you up!
ReplyDeleteLife is goooood dude.Go smoke some weed man!
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